All throughout middle school and high school I was always the girl who was good at math. I picked up the concepts faster than most of my friends, and it was the one subject in school that was challenging enough to keep me interested.
All throughout middle school and high school I was also always on the stage. I did theatre, I danced, I played instruments. Creativity was an important part of my life. But since I was only ever average at all of these activities, I didn’t even consider them when making my college plans.
I knew for years I had to be an engineering major in college. If I didn’t I would be letting down my teachers and friends for not “working to my highest potential.” So much pressure is put on students to choose a major where they will be the “most successful.” I believed that this meant majoring in something that I knew I would be good at (and that would make me a lot of money).
For two years I worked my butt off in engineering. I passed all of my classes and maintained my high GPA. The further I got into my major though, the more unhappy I was. Nothing sparked a passion in me. I noticed that most of my friends were falling more and more in love with their major with every class they took, and I was falling out.
After withdrawing from a class about the internal stresses of beams (that made me fall asleep just reading the syllabus), I did some soul searching, got over my fear of letting people down and thinking I was a failure, and realized what was missing in my education- creativity.
After reading the course catalog for just about every major UCF offers, I finally decided to major in advertising and public relations. This was a big step for me because so much of this major is about writing, and that is the one skill I am most self conscious about. It has been about a year and a half since I decided to do a 180 in my college career, and I haven’t regretted it once. Turns out, people that aren’t FCAT graders or my AP English Language teacher actually like my writing. My classes now challenge me in ways that my engineering classes never did. I am finding creative solutions to problems and not just following a formula. I am speaking up in class and asking questions and giving my opinions rather than locking myself in my room until I figure out a problem on my own. Each class I take gives me so much hope for my future. No matter where I end up in my field, I know I will be surrounded by individuals who share my compassion for creativity and who will challenge me to grow in my work and as a person.